Disgracing ... but i shall stand strong !

http://www.malaysiakini.com/opinions/41813

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After reading it , i can't stop thinking about all the corruption in this country . They say one malaysia , but holy craps man . That Guy was abused by the policeman , the judge (so happen to be the one who knows the laws best) . He was robbed , stripped naked , abused , and treated horribly .

Reading through it , i felt so much anger against those policeman who did those things . I will never be able to feel the anger he felt , who can ? The policeman offered him and his friends a cigarette and ended up taking Rm10 from their wallets . Wth ! they threatened the family members by asking them "where is my money" . Holy bullocks !

Anyway , can't wait for tmrw night . SA night :) .

Mich !! lets train sheryl *ding * . haha

OldTown white Coffee :D

I'm am now at Oldtown White Coffee in Bu8 .
Yes it is that big big building next to Centerpoint . I have no idea what the hell the building for . Honestly , its kind of a white elephant . I am now awaiting the arrival of Julian Gan . Michelle and Scott have ditched me D: I am now stuck with Them !!! .

This week !! i lost the pain on my waist , and i gained it back . Not from football , but from badminton .

Maybe what she says about me is true , I am stubborn . :S .

Dreams are suppose to be chased aren't they ? IF NOT , then what the heck are dreams for ?

I'm playing for Joy Lam :D , And grace , if you are reading this ! I promise i will help her , not stress her out :P *ding *

Hocka Pocka , I miss you , Puppet .

I really really wonder !

Sometimes i really wonder whether the things you say are for me or not . Anyway

I seem realize that everything i've been doing , all have been recorded down in a little tiny book . And the person writing it is , yeah , GOD . hmm ... i really want to take a look at that book at see if i am really living my life i way i should . Its funny how we take things for granted and only when it hit us we then realize we were in wrong . What very complex and ignorant species we are . I'm sad to say that i am one of those "species" . I see everything as it is , but i don't seem to take a closer look at what pain and sorrow they can bring. I tend to see the side that pleases to me the most , but the part that i don't really enjoy , well lets say i just deal with it in my heart . And when that bubble finally pops , everything turns ugly . I've learned my lesson , i guess . I've made mistakes , i know . I'm sorry , but that doesn't mean i cant change . It may take awhile , that doesn't mean you have to throw me off the cliff so that you can be happy .

And btw !! i've collected all the comments that people have given me

Mom tells me " i get too emotionally attached to stuff"

Brother tells me " i'm too ignorant to see my mistakes "

Someone really close to me tells me that " i'm confusing "

My aunties and uncle tells me " why can't you be more like your brother "

A friend tells me that " i am too serious in life "

A friend tells me that " i need to chill more "

A friend tells me that " i need to stop looking back at the pass and look to the future "

And someone really close to me says " i need to forget and let go of things "

I wanna thank , B1tch and Penguinman for being there me ! .Cheers .

Being a Guy is definitely hard !!

Being a Guy can be so Challenging sometimes . In most cases , the guys are always to be blame . For an example , if a parent catches a group consisting of guys and girls drinking , the Guys would most likely be the prime influencer .

And there is also a part of looking Good! . Gosh if A guy doesn't look good , which girl would want him ? ahaha :P . A guy has to maintain his body structure !! Meaning , getting muscles , being fit , having a nice body shape and be intellectual . And once you get muscles you have to consistently work on them or you will lose them . Rawrr .

Now for an instance , look at Zac Efron . For alot of american boys , he is the teen icon . Hmm

He is charming , Handsome , Cute , adorable , macho .

This would be the few answers some girls might give .

Now lets take this young man as an example .

Girls might say , he looks fine ... (THE END)

Hmm sorry scott xD ..

But honestly !!! Scott would out beat Zac Efron anyday . Who need to look like Zac Efron right ?

hahaha honestly I am kinda writing this for the fun of it :D . yes scott you look cute :P

Like a G6 -_-.

Hmm i guess G6 means drunk ??

Oh well ...

I got the sore throats . Whole day is really screwed up by it . Gosh !!

I continuously get hiccups , non-stop !! My tummy hurts from all the hiccups . Fck!!!

Gosh while typing this . I'm listening to Far East Movement - Like A G6.

Bryan Adams - Heaven . Listening to the song makes me cry . I keep on thinking about you . I hope your having a good time in Vietnam . Damn i miss you .

I miss Having someone who i can always go to for help , someone whom i know will stand next to me and cheer me up . Someone who make sure that i am smiling before she leaves . I just wanna thank you for everything that you have helped me through . To tell you the truth , i felt safe around you . Even talking to you made me secure . Maybe thats was my problem , or not . :S gosh ...

Fireflies and bubble Bees

Bang , I killed you with a gun .

Boom , you got killed by a missile .

Slash , you got killed by a knife .

Guess what !!!

Michelle and I and Killing everyone on SA .

Scott you need to get your SA working nawwww !!!! . D:

As Mint Zombies Take over the world!!!

John Soo !!! you drain me from my mints xD !!

I swear ! you ate more mints then me . (even when i bought them)

School Has been so chaotic lately , Getting so much shit from Two teachers !! --> Jenna & Rachel

Teacher Alan seems very stressed these days , Vic calls him "Testy".

Arhm >,< . yesterday this group of Females :D came from America to Share with us .

Well Zane !! why not you tell your story aie :P .

And Michelle :) WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Spining like a globe .

Things just seem out of place . Well what can i say , things never stay the same forever . Especially people . Like me , i've changed and it cost me big time !

Maybe is it true that people were not suppose to chase fantasis . But i know for sure your not one . Its funny how some people change not because of someone else , but because of yourself . For an instance , take me as an example . I was with this Amazing girl , I have been Chasing after for over 3 years now ? Well once i finally got something going on between us i mess up . How ?

I will tell you how , I WASN'T being ME !! . That was the mistake . I tried being someone else so that , that girl would find me more pleasing and interesting . But i ended up screwing both of us up . Well , that would make me a Package of sorrow for any girl wont it . :P

Ahaha , i've KNOW it already. AND i will nvr repeat the same mistake .

Birthday is coming Soon !! I'm counting the days as they pass . :D , Can't wait . Presents , Surprises . But it won't be complete with you .

Seriously Sorry .

Whatever you wanna say just say it to face my alright ?

Would i ever say anything about you like that online ?

I'm sorry ! i said it .If there is anyway i can prove it to you .

Words can only do that much . If you need time i will give you all you want . I wont text you anymore , i wont call you anymore . Until we're ready . If i cross my boundaries i apologize .

You can ignore me all you like . I deserve it .

I said things and reacted to things which has made you stare at me with those eyes of anger .

You might hate me as you read this now . but i just hope when you do read this , you will just forgive me . I've lost your trust and maybe thats the worst i can lose . Losing your trust = losing you .

I still wanna make this right .

So i will do my part cause .

Everyone else as my witness !!

Getting Close to you was already so hard . I know i have fucked things up . I am sorry ! I know i kept on bringing it up over and over again . You have all right to be angry at me . You have all right to ask me fuck off . You have all right to ignore me . But do you really want me out of your life forever ? Didn't everything we went through mean anything to you ? I believe with every single living Cell in me that I do still mean something to you . Cause you still do , to you me .

Hey i ain't perfect . I wanted to make things right but i ended up making this worst in the process .

I have to say all these here since you won't reply me at all or even answer my calls . So i hope you still read my blog .

I will do my part in getting things back to normal ! Everyone mark my words . And everyone as a witness to this blog post .

Egbert, with all the sorry-ness i can express .

Just don't bitch about me please ? You can ask me to fuck off , just don't bitch about me .

I know you still care for me and you wont bitch about me . I just hope i am right .

I know this is my world behind bars . Don't make us a war please .

I hate fighting with you . I hate ignoring you . I hate us like this .

Trust me onces more . Please !!

thats all i can ask .